This past Friday, a piece of glass got lodged into my foot while I was at a bar. In the ambulance, they told me that we were headed to the closest hospital, which happens to be an extremely Catholic hospital. My stomach began to flutter as I imagined how uncomfortable I might feel in such a place. (In fact, it is the only branch that does not recognize the "domestic partners" of employees as eligible to receive health insurance.)
As I arrived, they asked me the typical hospital questions, such as my date of birth and what medications I was taking. Then, the dreaded question was asked: What is your religious preference? Shyly, I answered, "um... just leave that blank." I felt so embarrassed, like I had done something WRONG for believing what I believe. This is the kind of emotions that I fight to prevent. NO ONE should feel ashamed of being who they are.
Racial minorities and women were the first to be treated as "below" the white male. But people began to fight for the freedoms of these individuals. Although many people are still racist and sexist today, society has began to accept these individuals. Hopefully, no one feels GUILTY for being in a certain racial class or gender. Next, homosexuals began to be ridiculed. But once again, people began to fight for their freedoms. Slowly but surely homosexuals have began to be accepted, and they are more able to openly express themselves.
Today, I believe that the group that is most repressed is atheists. At the hospital, I told the nurse to "leave it blank", because I was genuinely worried that my religious preference may interfere with my treatment. I didn't want to listen to someone explain to me that my choices are WRONG, and that I should be ashamed. Just as with race, gender, and sexual preference, in order for atheists (and other religious preferences) to be treated with respect and openness, people will need to help fight for our freedoms. We have finally had our first black president... how long will it take to have an openly atheist president????
Many people have different approaches toward dealing with my atheism. Most people I encounter are generally "okay" with it, but I think it secretly disgusts them. For instance, when fighting with my mom earlier, I sneezed. She responded by saying, "GOD bless you", which emphasize on the "god", as if I am some sort of horrible, disgusting person for not believing in a god. She sometimes accidentally lets it obvious that she hates me for being atheist.
At the hospital today, this very nice nurse was teaching me how to walk upstairs using crutches. She was teaching me to put my "good" foot first when going upstairs and my "bad" foot first when going downstairs. She said that the way she remembers it is that "good things go to heaven, and bad things go to hell." My mom blurted out, "well, she's an atheist.", with all of the disgust she could render. There was this long moment of silence where I turned bright red, and a few people stared at me. The nurse was silent for a few seconds and said something like, "well, that's okay, you can use any way to remember it..." She actually said "that's okay", as if it was something that needed some sort of apology.
The hospital is filled with signs that mention their "mission and values", which includes many things that aren't relevant to me. There are also crosses on many of the walls. Although I didn't feel comfortable being surrounded by these reminders that I have essentially committed the worst sin in their eyes, I feel that everyone treated me with kindness and performed their jobs efficiently. After all, one of their missions was to protect the "sacredness of human life". Even though I don't believe that human life is necessarily "sacred", I still believe that my life should be protected at all costs. Ultimately, atheists and non-atheists have a common goal: to live a long, healthy, happy life. After all... If you prick us, do we not bleed?
As a side note, I notice that many atheists have different ways of handing their beliefs. Michael and I were attending a graduation ceremony in which we had to say the pledge of allegiance. When it got to the dreaded "under god" part, I chose to simply not say anything and skip over that line. However, I heard Michael say "under gods", which I thought was funny, because in our favorite television series, Battlestar Galactica, their society believes in polytheism. However, there is a small group of people that believe in "the one true god", and they constantly get ridiculed and beaten. No matter what religious beliefs a society has, it will always be taboo to believe in something different. When will we reach the point where religious preference is unimportant? When will we live in a society where all people are treated equal?